I've been feeling a bit more introspective than usual lately. Today, is the Libra New Moon which a time for new beginnings, intention setting and restoring balance. My life has been in transition since April, and over the past two weeks or so, there's been this urging in my soul to take a deep breath, dig deep, and confront who I was and what happened earlier this year.
There's been a lot of back and forth about what is, and what isn't, and what could be. During those 3-4 weeks I spent in the hospital, I spent a lot of time documenting what happened, what I was thinking and when I was thinking it, and for the first time this week, I pulled out my documentation and started leafing through it.
Everything is as real to me today, as it was back in April.
I still don't know exactly what I'm supposed to do with this information except observe and take notes on the world around me, live my life in the present moment and have the courage to communicate downloads as they come. (Courage...that's the most difficult part...)
History has had a renaissance in my life since the beginning of this year. I spent much of my undergraduate years in the library archives and the history section of Barnes & Noble. lt has always been my focus to knit together multiple historical accounts to paint a more realistic picture of what has occurred in the past, how it is connected the present, and the implications this information has on our future.
When you cut yourself off from history, you cut yourself off from accessing TRUTH.
And, by history, I mean multiple accounts of history. Not just "your" history, but the history of your "oppressor," and the history of those who are different than you that encompasses every aspect of our existence--from the beginning to the "end" of time.
We all have pieces of the puzzle. It's counterproductive to continue the madness of debating whose pieces are correct, and who are the "crazies." Let's start working together to put this puzzle of our history together.